The Awesomeness of God

So it's been a while, but I've been busy. God's been revealing new depths of himself to me, and deepening the vision he's placed in me. It's awe inspiring to me how incredibly faithful the Most High is. I mean really, I know nothing. I'm so incapable of succeeding at anything without the Lord. Why would I possibly think I could control anything? It's ludicrous! And arrogant. The Lord is my boss, and I'm an employee. I don't have a right to know the grand scheme of my life, or the big picture, or even the details. I get to hear and obey. And that is an awesome privilege! I get to hear the voice of the creator of my life and I get the choice to obey him. 

What other choice do I have except to obey? Such a being deserves my absolute, unconditional, unquestioning devotion and obedience. My delight should always be in obedience. What are my desires but paltry things that will waste into dust? The only desire I have is for God to create in me a want for what he wants, a disgust for what he hates, and a passionate longing after his face. 

Jesus has me completely. I belong to him. By choice. I am my Beloved's and He is mine. Always. What a profound thing to think that I can have an intensely intimate and personal relationship with the savior of man kind. Wow. That kind of blows your mind. I can't really even fathom it. And he's pretty unfathomable. No matter how long I know him, each day he reveals new things, new depths of himself. I will continue to get to know him for the rest of my life. I will never know him fully. What a challenge and so much fun! To pursue and be pursued by someone like that. It's endlessly adventurous, never boring and always new. 

God has so redeemed me. Beyond what I should ever deserve. Hell is what I deserve. Anything aside from that is undeserved grace. I trust him. He has control and the desire of my life is simple: 

Psalm 27:4 One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple.